My mom had a lhasa apso given to her for christmas back in 98 as a puppy. I raised him as she was off to So. Cal for the winter and he was my buddy and slept beside me and became my best friend. He passed away a year ago and I cried like a baby. He was my friend, and always available and full of warmth and love. I feel for you and know what you are going through. They are NOT just dogs, they are members of the family. My condolences and I hope that you willl find another friend to stand in his place, as you will never be able to actually replace him…..