About 10 weeks ago my girlfriend and I broke up. I’m not one for expressing myself in a public forum about my personal life so the matter has remained mostly offline.
On the advice of a very good friend I took to writing my thoughts and feelings down in a place where nobody will see them. Dead tree format’s too insecure so I’ve made a lot of use of Open Office!
Now I’m trying to figure out why writing things down helped so much! Maybe it’s just a coincidence, or perhaps it’s because I can write down what I wouldn’t tell anyone? I think it may be because by writing I need to concentrate. I need to face bare facts, and not have half forgotten conversations over a pint in a pub.
Hehe. I used to think my emotions, feelings and motivations were clear to me as I was “master of my own destiny” but the more I explore and examine the more I realise how little I know about what makes me tick!
Donncha,
I feel for ya man ! When are you going to get yourself up to the big smoke though ?
I know what you mean, you know where things are at with me at the moment, and though I’ve not written things down on a regular basis, I wrote down what I’d like to say to her prior to actually telling her and it made me feel so much better!
It’s always going to hurt, but it does get better, and at the end of the day, no-one died and it makes us better people as a result of it!
As I always say, no regrets, keep your chin up pal, I am! 🙂